Welcome to my blog! I actually started this space back in May of 2016… before I ever became (and then un-became) one of Jehovah’s Witnesses.

At the time, I was severely depressed… hanging by a thread and shrinking under the weight of pain I did not fully comprehend and could not name… and then came the Jehovah’s Witnesses.

It wasn’t truth that converted me… it was timing. And to be honest, it was also the deeply entrenched, limiting beliefs I had: That I was inherently unworthy, and that love, even parental and God’s love, was something to be earned… not freely given.

Today, I’m one year free from that high-control religion, and I write to continue my inner healing while helping others better understand their own deconstruction and healing journeys.

Many have tried to silence me, and for too long, they were successful.

Jehovah’s Witnesses used fear. They said if I spoke out, God would judge me as an unforgivable apostate. They also warned that I’d lose all my family and community still in the religion. The second part was true.

Family not associated with the religion used shame. They accused me of being “attention seeking” and selfish. If they did admit any accountability, they expected payment for their admission… my silence.

In their eyes, I needed to get over it and move on. To stop being sensitive. A few even told me that if I dared to speak the truth about the neglect, abuse, and abandonment I endured… I’d lose them too.

So, I lost them. Willingly.

I left Jehovah’s Witnesses because of the control, fear, and shame they force fed me daily. To remain silent… would be to never completely break free.

And as for family… if I kept protecting the reputations of those who hurt me… I’d still be prioritizing their pain over mine.

So I spoke up. I finally chose me.

You can read more about it in my book, Best Life After. I also share regularly on Tik Tok @444corelyse888 and right here on this blog.

Thanks for stopping by!